Glitzing the night away

Dear bloggie,

The Anth paper was neat! Except that tiny bit which I obviously did not pay much attention to =3 I missed out some parts because 1. I don't remember reading 'that' at all; 2. I briefly looked at it. AND, my mechanical pencil died on me at the most perfect time - question 18. Wargh.

"Um excuse me miss, I know this is a horrible time to tell you this but, my pencil just ran outta lead >///>"

"Just use your pen"

"*looks at pen* Oh okay...!"

For the first time in my life, I did NOT bring an extra pencil. For the first time in my life, I did NOT add in more lead. For the first time in my life, I did NOT bring an eraser! For the first time in my life, I darkened my answers with a pen!! But it was a good first time =3 I haven't had my first time cheating though *halo*... ~

Anyway, I'mma blog a little about what's happened during the beginning of the month - Glitz & Glamor 2010 @ Tropicana Golf & Country Club! Duetotheoldage-nessofmyol'sfaithfulcamera,ithadtodieonmeduringeventtimesbecauseoftheverydimlightinthegrandballroomthereforei'musingmyfriend'spictures =3

Personally, I think the prom from the last year was a little crappy (to many, A LOT crappy). The food then was okay, the place was really bad, the deco was so-so, the organizers were totally lost, the performances were kinda boring expect my bunch'a friends and I had a good table and the theme was terrific. Everyone dressed to impress and I honestly can admit that my dress wasn't outstanding neither did my hair do nor makeup appeal to anything or anyone. Haha... Though my friends really rocked the table for being such dressed up people I have to say! I didn't have many pictures too last year because again, my camera doesn't work in dark areas.

This year, I finally had a date! And he is Jerry~ I love him so much. He truly is my bestie, male version; more of an extremely close childhood friend and not to mention hs IS my longest childhood friend since we were 8 years old~ I really hope he had fun and enjoyed himself. I knew I was not a paired dancer because I just didn't know how to get that intimate a dance with you... yes I was shy... And I am so sorry... The funniest thing to me that happened was Bong. She made friends and definitely enjoyed Jerry's company since they were seated next to each other. She herself was stunning and I so LOVE her matte Snow White lips! <3



Oh and I totally forgot about my dress! This (in the picture below) was a Greek inspired chitton if you noticed with the brooches I got to put the sleeves up (but low enough to hide my big arms!). It was spicy chili red with beautiful ivory pearl pipings. My best pair of heels were white and golden-ish bronze sandals. I matched them with simple and durable golden bangles to keep my wrist 'occupied' since I do not look good with rings at all but had a small pair of dangling pearl earrings. Then came my mum's old clutch in ivory satin material and gold fasteners. Make up was the EASIEST, SIMPLEST and NEATEST - Shimmery pastel yellow with a hint of gold eyeshadow, a very striking cat-eye effect eyeliner using a little black eyeshadow and black liquid liner, a long sexy pair of falsies, good ol' Rimmel mascara and dark rosy lips. Had a wig on too actually though it looked pretty real~ But I am so happy with the quality and how it looked no me! Not to forget my well *perasan* did french manicure using my what-ever-I-have technique and hardened brush which somehow removed it with a lot of remover and got it back in shape! Yay~

My whole theme was actually "Greek Goddess in Red, White and Gold" which I hope made sense because the Glitz & Glamor theme was "Viva Las Vegas". I HAD to look like one of my favorite resort and casino's - Caesar's Palace. But I feel like I ended up looking a lot like Oprah Winfrey because'a my size... Drastic lack of exercise, over load of alcohol and unstoppable eating habits...

This big yet meaning ful picture of us girls who sat on the same table (except the dearest Lady in FULL lace dress! GRRRrrrRRRRrrrRRRRrrr "I don't mind buying that dress over for second hand =3"). From far left: Snow White (she was SO fair with RED RED ROSE lips), Ballerina (that night, the rockstar!), Black Dahlia (I thought she looked gorgeaous with her glove idea and black dress with those sexy MJ's), Lacey Black, Myself, Cinderella (her role in her play many years back) & Sweet Subtle (whom for once I see her in a very sweet and gentle outfit). I love how this picture turned up. Though somehow I realized there weren't any pictures this year of Black Dahlia any I... I'm really sad though... Wonder why. I knew I didn't have a camera but I did ask around for help. Too bad no one actually realized though. But, does she want a picture with me too? I don't know. Sadly, I haven't had any chance to really talk to her these days... She's been really busy with her work and stuff; while I have classes and was working my past months. Sad...

Insanely in this picture above, two black guys decided to join us for a picture session too. Not really sure why, but the picture turned out pretty nice! Haha...

In another group picture (flashed!) with Chirstine, Harmmie, Maybel and two other people whom I totally do not remember, I was the shortest. What is this?? How could I have emphasized on my height?? And the longest dress? Haha... Whatever~

At the table when the emcee said something pretty ridiculous and we all laughed. I think this was candid. See my nails?? =DD

Also, I realized I did not have any proper potriats of myself for the event... Neither a nice pair up picture I can crop except this:

Haha! Yvie's hat is still visible! That was the only available picture for me to crop and wonderfully, it was GOOD! <3>_> Geez.

Fingers cross no matter what. Keep the focus on fun! Haha...~ Okay, I'm real tired now and haven't really had the best sleep for this month and the last. Off to bed for now. Good night bloggie~ Take care! Sweetzzzzz <3 Love you lots and lots and lots and lots~~~ God bless and I'll be updating soon! =D

Wrong Spell

Dear bloggie,

Thy has a goodz daz. Wonderfuzzily good~ But that would be a partial lie would it not? Haha... It was a so-so good day for a sad person like me (once in a while like now).

Anyway, the paper Philosophy today - was OKAY only... Reason because I missed my first few classes because I was still under my internship contract and couldn't just walk off. Talk about the money I'd lose for the 3 days! Noesssss....! So it's money over matter! If I didn't miss the classes, I am positively sure I was able to answer the questions without thinking. Mr. Ari's got his tricks to get the freshies crazily panicking on the paper! Haha... But it was all good. I loved the essay; now to pray that it was all good and made sense from crapping... My mistake was that I answered 3 points on the paper at the top when he limited us to only writing on ONE SIDE of the paper. Whatte yea. So for the first time in history, Doll's handwriting was a lot tinier than the actual size. Wouldn't my sister be proud'a me?

It was great having you around with the after effects of alcohol from the wine you had. The best thing wasn't dirty talk; it was casual lovey-dovey chat - just the way I always wanted...! Reminder to self, "No More Chess For Life". I will not touch the board NOR pieces please. I suck so much at the game, I don't even like it anymore! (not to mention that it was my first game which was also abruptly closed because of overheating...) It was fun yes, but it's not very fun when you're playing with someone very experienced and you knowing nuts! Oh and, thanks for staying up to meet me online... I have to say, it was a good thing I decided to miss breakfast for once =P Bad me again~

One of my group members can't make it for the visit on Saturday. Lecturer said she was allowed to join another group just for the sake of attendance to visit >_> But she'll be doing the editing of 3min video. I'mma make her do it with my other member, Asthma Achmed since his task was video and editing.

And I just found out the video I have been loading for 5 hours, sent to his email and he hasn't received it. 300MB. 5hours. 100000000000000 braincells killed in the process of frustration because of system crashing. 50pages of textbook notes not read because of constant checking on the process. There goes it. My mood just went downhill. Oh God. Amen. Never mind. So. Angry. Tired. Sad. I think i'mma burst into tears.

Back to studying my last paper Anthropology... And feel really horrible about what happened... *sigh* Oh but I have one picture today in my wish list:


Picture credits to Jangsara from her blog. She's like my fav makeup artist now... So inspiring and yet so subtle. Loving all her makeup. I sent her an email not too long ago, but didn't get a reply... Hope she received it though...!

That's the last for an emo-ish night. Take care bloggie... Loving you lots and lotser =P G'night! Sweet dreams and I'll update soon~

The only exception

Dear bloggie,

I'm feeling terribly confused again; thankfully not my mind but my heart. Then again, it's a whole rocket science feeling deep inside.

Remember how easily something I'm not sure of or doubtful of can push me to the brink of misunderstanding - it happened again. I do wonder how and why something like that can happen so often and constantly no matter how much I do try to stand up to my own thoughts. Isn't it such a great idea to separate one's heart from their mind? Why must another person's opinion stir mine. Menses issues, I think not. Dear God, please make me stop thinking. I don't mind if the earth started spinning faster while I'm not. Can I not be so dependent towards a partner or a loved one?? That's the only thing I can ask for now. The pathetic aura creeping on my bad and reminding me of how unreliable I am...

Honestly, I was so tempted to try another eye do and see how it will come out this time with a different color that I have always thought it will look horrible - pink. Since Halloween is in 2 weeks, how about a good scare? Haha... What will look nasty on me (everything...)? Mum was just telling me that during Halloween, "I will NEVER put up anything like THAT in my home!" after watching Martha Stewart's make over for an awesome Haunted House, and the fact that Caucasians have their homes decorated with those lovely lovely yet ghoul-ish deco's. Pretty neat stuff I'd say!

And I am so angry and disappointed with my group members. Well, jamming boy Andy seem pretty alright and he's managed to get his respectful part done; Goody two shoes Mei is taking a long time to do her work and sent me a version of MS Word I CANNOT open... Means I gotta send it downstairs to the other pc and see if I can open it there; Tiny Minie apparently will be doing the editing part of the video - 3 minutes and I HIGHLY doubt she'll be personally doing the editing. C'mon, if you have a friend who knows all the ins and outs of editing and your stupid team leader doesn't know nuts about what happens, you'll definitely just buy him/her lunch and get em' to do the work! And finally Asthma Achmed. Well, please don't ask why the nickname cause' I just decided to make it really rhymey and it matches! He has not come back to me on the hamper. What gives for kids these days to understand fully on "Get back to me IMMEDIATELY". I'm really, really really really really so tired... Of repeating... It is just to confirm the price of the goods and tell me how much you have spent so I can email Tom, Dick, Harry, Sally, Mary and Diana what's happened because I'm not the only one contributing the money. If you like paying up fully for us, go ahead. I'm more delighted to actually.

On the other side of my world, I have be tempted by not-sure-what to go for a good shave on the head. Haha... Yes I mean "go bald" if you didn't quite get the first word. It's been rough on my life recently and there's no improvement but more hair on the floor (if that's the floor's improvement...). I've grown pretty sick of keeping them in place and making sure it doesn't 'shine' in public. Now to figure out when I should do it.

It is already Wed and I have not touched my noted nor books at all for my (STUPID) two (MOST HATED YET AVAILABLE) subjects. Thankfully, the last 3 papers of my college life. Oh and, have I told you how awesome it is to be a senior in the class of 2nd semester students? Awesome. Period.

Early afternoon to you too! I'll keep you up and about tomorrow since it is a little too early to post this thingy... Have a wonderfully scorching Wednesday full with blisters! Somehow, the sun seems a little shy today - so no blisters! Neat........ Anyway, good day ahead and have fun! =D Lots'a love and kisses from yours truly~ <3


p.s. Slowly but surely, I am getting a little too obsessed with squirrels! Squeak squeak, squeak squeaken! (I have white eyeshadow over my grey fur!)

On my way to Believing

Dear bloggie,

The weather today is at its superb-est: 32 1/2 degrees Celsius. Enjoy the "cool" heat and warm breath of wind that breathes down your neck! Scorching and when the sun hits your skin, beware as it is blistering!

Today too, I have finally had a good glimpse at the pictures of my lovely new Canadian-Asian baby Rian James... He's a(nother) pink darling! His hair is so obviously brown! But he's so cute, I strongly believe he's gonna be as handsome as his daddy! And lovely as my cousin or his mummy... Though i keep looking at children pictures and have my own mind wondering off on its own, "Will I be there one day?". Rick Diculous; but possible.

Today, I got on but you weren't around. I kept telling mum that "He's out shopping. And I'm pretty sure about that" I think =P But it's okay. You definitely needed the shop especially food wise. Honestly, if anyone were to ask me when does he start work, I'd probably just stare and laugh at myself (no I don't know when he starts work!). Good God... Did I ask?? I miss you a lot though... How silly of me. It was about a couple'a hours ago since I saw you that's all! But, I really want to apologize for my mistakes... I just want you to know that I don't mean anything nasty when I say it. You look so forward in life and I'm eventually living in my own world. I am learning; takes time and not having you to guide me along the way seem difficult for some reason. If only you were closer by heart. Anyway, is it sinful of me to keep stalking our pictures in my own file? Hahaha...

No pictures of the day nor makeup eye do of today. Since I was indulging WAY too much in my newly-downloaded-ever-favorite-game-of-my-lifetime ... ... ... ... ... ... EARTHBOUND~~~~ Super Nintendo =3 I played that game as I was growing up. THIS however maybe extremely sinful -> Sneaking up to the pc early in the morning to make sure I don't get caught and play as long as I can! Haha... Those were the sneaking days; unlike today (I can stay up all day =D)! http://www.fantasyanime.com/legacy/earthb_about.htm -> more details on the game... I can't put them all down. But the least i can do is take some snapshots of the game as I play, like I have reached the 3rd map of the game already~


Just so yo know, this picture is the "suppose-to-happen" WII version but was delayed because of some legal issues that's not been settled. SAD.

That should be it for tonight... And just to share my extreme vain-ness, I'm really happy with my eye do yesterday because I did look like me =P But seriously, I feel really proud of what I am capable of doing now thanks to Black Dahlia and several of my other friends because if they have never taught me the basics, there's no way I would have end up with something so so neat. Thank you dearest friends =)


That's all for tonight. Night bloggieeeee~ Sweetzzz!~ And love you loads and a lot loads more... Take good care'a yerself and I'll pretty much update you really soon! Bye!

Paddington Station

Dear bloggie,

It is so midterm but apparently my brain has not adapted to the studying mood yet... And a little disturbed by some thoughts too.

I noticed how I kind of filter my feelings my pretending I'm alright from something that has happen. Usually from a very annoying response. Recently, I've felt quite empty for some reason - no kick? Possibly because you were busy catching up with life and packing your things you own along the way for another one year. Then again, I still am in need of company unlike the friends you have that come in loads! You realized something's not right or you know that you need to do something (whether about it or not), then it disappears, as if we never talked about it. Do you actually know what I just say? Really.

Anyway, I was surprised with how the makeup eye do I did this morning actually looked REALLY nice. It turns up that I can look good with gold AND bronze with the correct tone! My last gold tone was so light, it blended in so nicely with my skin tone as if it was a highlighter... It is also not my profile picture on FB as well as display pictures for the rest of my messengers~ Oh how I fell in love with my own eyes. Haha... But it was great that my camera was not too stubborn (though there were obvious blurness in almost all the pictures!). Now I'm considering another try tomorrow... Figures ^_^


Nothing much really happened today, but I look forward to start picking up the house now. Since I HAVE been slacking a lot and leaving trails from what ever I do instead... BAD HABIT. Bad girl.

I feel so alone suddenly. Even when you're around...

Night bloggie! I'll see if i can try posting something up tomorrow instead of this pile'a nothing =P Sweetz~ Take care and God bless! Loving you loads and loads (as usual!) haha...~

Blue-ver Load

Dear bloggie,


I was going through my old pictures like two year back and found some really nice inspirations - they're all my old eye colors and practices...

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BEWARE OF MONOTONOUS COLOR!!

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This was probably two years back: June 2008

From an EXTREMELY easy line


To a simple 3 color eyeshadow do (without eyeliner, except the lower lash line) by Elianto colors.

To a little more dramatic fantasy inspired blue washes from my fav colors...

To VERY dramatic black lines and gold eyeshadow...

Then we have pink experiments which didn't quite work out...


And my ever favorite GOLD and GREEN~~

And failing badly with brown and pink (sorry for the silliest expression...)

Came a more daring splash of tropical Skittles! Light blue, Purple and Lime Green =D

Another experiment of 3 tones with my fav colors~


Not to mention how crazy i am to be always inspired by my nail colors! Hahaha...


Smoking hot eyes are always the hottest! Why not try with my next favorite color?



Who can resist Smokey Navy colors? Haha... You'd probably just kill me now since EVERY test run is blue!




Though nothing can beat the craziest eye do I did - Arabic Inspired Cat Eyes! Okay the head scarf was to make it look more Arabic...


Haha! Blue eyeshadow totally inspired by my earrings I wore back then. Wonderfully, they fell and broke months back. Only pictures are left.

And so that is a part of my try outs for eyes... I usually am not bothered to do the other parts of my face like powder, foundation or corrections =P Except some gloss or stain~ But I'll post the rest of them up maybe in the days to come... Blue overload tonight! Haha...

He'll be flying off soon. But for a good reason. Tingly? Blue tingles tonight! Night bloggie! Take care~ Love you totally lots and have fun there! =D

Awesome

Dear bloggie,

It's been a gazillion years since I posted something. Well, not literally =P Just too long for me to bother to remember when was my last post~

It's already 10/10/10 and for some reason, it's a big number to me. You're leaving soon. And the gazillion memories we had just flashed every second reminding me of how great you are (awesome or extremely impressive?). Needn't be mentioned is the amount of time we might spend together will be cut down a lot more than the usual hang out times we have online now; though the thought of that time brings the possibilities for us to be even closer than ever puts a small smile on my lips. I might be able to sleep better tonight though - because you're always in my thoughts. And truth be told, I do look very silly now. It gets me all tingly and excited just thinking about the silliest joke you make and simplest things you do. Maybe that's what love is all about. It makes you look, feel and act silly through the funniest ways.

On the back of my mind screams hurt, worry and sadness. You'll be away. Your job requires you to. Your destination today isn't the safest place on earth though I know how safe it is to be with you. You may not be an arms' length for me to reach you, but knowing how much you do care for me does more than the tingly feeling. The one word difficult to say is 'Goodbye', but you should know I'll miss you. Do I really need to repeat that?

I could probably write pages and uncountable pages on you but they can't possibly tell how I actually feel right now. There were some problems that I raised recently which ended up to be my fault anyway - I need to apologize. But now, I just want you to know how impressive you are, basically no match or comparison to anyone else. All I gotta do is be more appreciative and glad you're here with me now. Though I do feel a little hurt that I end up with the awkward silence in our conversations or doubtful thoughts that you're still upset with me; or refuse to forgive me - No, I can't blame you for that (and won't).

You might not be reading this, but I want you to know how much I really do care and love you. Bon Voyage, take care, God bless and I miss you so much...



Night bloggie... Sweets! Take care and I'll be up and about to keep you updated now ^_^ Loving you loads!