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Dear bloggie,



There's no fun when you're stuck with working your ass off just to pay that mobo you blew, wanna go for dancing classes, earning stopped abruptly because of your fucking boss, parent's not encouraging to pay for it and knowing that your body can't take the stress.

Recently been spending on a little extra clothings for CNY including my always wanted set of falsies therefore money has gone down. Not totally but, painful enough to watch it drop.

~ Eye masks (BluRR main tipu... She's not sharing money for this!)
~ Face masks
~ Falsies
~ Black Mascara (i can't believe i'm spending like 50bucks on this black crap >_>)
~ Clothings (it was a good deal)
~ Flats (for college what else, PLUS cutting down on those smexies))
~ Friend's Gift (erm. A little too early but =B)

Shit. Suppose the only thing that could'a be in line was the falsies. But i was looking forward for the D3k! Oh you sad case human being. I can't find any good reason why i wanted to work so badly. FUCK you old hag... I can't even decide on what to do.

~ Dance (trimesterly)
~ Black Mascara (ERM. YEARLY duh)
~ Massage (Father's Day perhaps?)
~ More clothes (???)
~ Prom ticks (summer - it's only JANUARY)
~ Sleeping Mask (this can wait)
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Should i get back to my old job? Should i look for another job which is convenient? Should i color my hair? *stress* Should i try another type of mascara that costs half the price? ARGH. Will any lingerie sale come along anytime soon? >_< Suppose it's a bad idea to keep BROWSING FOR NO REASON?? -> agreed. Help. Can i buy a little more time pleas...? Oh as if i have enough money forget it ~_~

Oh noes the house chores. I haven't started on any yet! YES i love my life! Woohoo! THIS is the rush i so totally _______.

Loves and kisses, sweet dreams night and God bless you totally bloggie.

Figures

Dear bloggie,

To receive calls when you're asleep seems to be pretty lagged out (?). But when you receive a call on someone who thinks life isn't just enough; you'd probably won't be able to get back to sleep - sadly.

Wonderfully, i did. Poor him. Called me up close to midnight worrying about death and looking at how it's even like before experiencing. Suppose, it's guilt. Thankfully, my Psychology background came to the rescue. Yay~ Don't be sad. It's over and keep looking at the bright side. Even if there were only two months, live it to the maximum and enjoy it! Why grieve and wished you were dead to reaslize in the end that it's just a nightmare no one wants to dream of? Talk to god. He listens. Talk to Jesus. He listens. Thats what i'd usually do when i'm pretty troubled (only that recently i've been a pretty bad girl not to do anything related to it =3).

My job. The day that i was about to enjoy it, was the day that i got kicked outta my seat! =DD (no, i'm not happy. Like seriously). I was discussing about work, about what we had to till she called me into the conference room and shot at me for the correct things i've been doing all these time. I swear, oh yes i swear that i'm not gonna let this go so easily. PLEASE respect the fact that i'm still a student here and you have no fucking right to shoot me that way. So what if i did like to wear jeans and sneakers to work? Have you fucking seen a student helper fucking wear formal attire? NO? Oh too bad. SO, fucking shut up. I'm mad. She lost her right hand and i'm not there to help anymore. Who's fault - YOU. I'm so sorry i'm not able to be your house sister for the time being since hu-ha happened. No one knows and i don't intend to let the world know either.

I'm not the best partner at L4D but i sure kicked zombies' asses that night i came home after dinner and SOME rest. Played the whole campaign on my own~ Without pris around since she was doing her homework... Don't wanna forget it but i don't wanna keep thinking about it either. What to do what to do... I'll figure it out soson;s i hope.

I'm putting on weight! Wargh~ Never mind.

Night bloggie. Take care and i so totally love you lots. Sweet dreams and byes!

A lone sum

Dear Bloggie,

The ironical story between my workplace and i. I never really thought we'll ever be this close to anyone at work. Well, CLOSE.

Been tired recently. Of almost everything. Perhaps thinking that the only way to keep things off my mind was to work. But being the usual weak person i've always been, weakness is second nature. Why - No good reason. Getting tired of almost everything around me (especially this new fucking mouse pris HAD to choose here!). Tired of the fact the scale's moving to the right, tired of my weak body, tired of my silly mind, tired of not getting an A for the subject i was so hoping to get, tired of thinking, tired of working so hard to earn so little in the end. Tired of spending on things i want to get for everyone including myself. Oh joy~ Tired is the new word in town! Only in my world that is.

Nice visit to college. Never thought you would. But not surprised either.

My parcel (oh wow- MY) isn't here yet... Why look at the month, it's already past new year and heading or CNY! Lol~ But i'm so looking forward to it! The ONLY thing for now... Ohs well.

I've been down. I'm down. I'm gonna be down. Where's that person when you need em'?Not much in the mood to type for once actually. And also the very strong feeling she's being all stupid again. True? Strangers can be big influences.

Night bloggie... I'm pretty dead sleepy but staying a little more to wait might make things worst. Take care and i love you loads. Always did. Sweet dreams!

*Yawn* derful

Dear Bloggie,

Notice the length from that day i updated~ Happy New Yearrrrrrrrrrr-desu!~ I"m so sleepy now.

Life for these days been good since the day i started work. Which? Oh college =3 Because i have a great Boss to work with!! YES~ That is the best thing that had only happened. Other than realizing that i could earn a little more for my cousin will be transferred pretty soon but not too sure how soon to HK~ And thanks to Mummy, "I MUST go to HK! No matter what!" now everyone will be a little too excited and will be a whole group vacation for sure. Wow. Hk Disney Land *_* WOW. Wowowowowowowowowowwwwwwww~

Cloud was there on Thurs night at work too just for the heck of it since she hasn't walked in at all. And yes she has lost more weight AGAIN (unlike me who does the reverse!) by what she told me "drinking every night without fail". Sure is nice to be able to drink that much but THAT much are you serious? I can't really imagine how her body's gonna function in the near future though. I mean from reading psychological references and how alcohol can really influence human body yadayadayadadadadadada. Other than that, it's just pretty sad how i'm not as loved in coll. Well you can't be the good books of every where now can we? I'm pretty much happy if i can help full stop. Nah i didn't make coffee for them but honestly, i never really thought i should. I mean, she's been there for how many years? -2. So yea she's got the experience. It's like working with Boss and knowing her ways and how she likes things and how to ans her. I'm really really happy that i could be of service and that i stay back every night for her NOT because i'm trying to sweep her off her feet but i fee that kinda love she's been giving me and been appreciating me. I have no problem and in fact am happy with stay back till 7 (which is been there done that just recently) to finish up her job and instead of leaving to fold the clothes and sleep (like been there done that NOW >_>).

I'm sleepy... And i'm being hated at work i suspect. Pretty cool eh? I didn't know i could have ever been a threat at work! Well yea i was off for months and months ago after he did and so did i. But i had my own reasons why i wanted to leave and i have my rights to not tell you why either. My name on a list, kinda like a time table chart was slashed off after i came in after like an hour. I have a strong feeling i know who she or he is but i can't make my moves. Told Boss but she told me (all my bosses are ladies =D) to ignore and she'll settle that person. Not really a problem there about the settling and stuff but i have no prove! I just SUSPECT and get that kinda "hate" feeling for the looks of a person. BECAUSE, ever since i reported back last fri, Bos transferred everything back to me and i got my old job back from what she was working on. Example, database and etcs. I was working on that last year before i left and she took over since then. And now that i'm back, she's lost everything and has to go back to what she does best. But she is good in that and earns a load from it. So what put me in your hate list? Hmm... Gotta do some investigation there.

CNY's gonna be just few weeks from now and mummy's already got her CNY cookies on plan! Been really busy the whole week and she really seem pretty upset. Reason because, she's like that when no one's home to keep her company. So predictable~ She's like me. We want company even when we say we don't and she's lonely. No one's home in the day and when everyone's home at night, i tell too much stories before and during dinner and after, i either am online or just gaming downstairs. OR sleeping. 9 to 7 isn't fun all the time =3 especially when you come home with grumpy mummy who expects you to settle the hse chores along with the hse chores. No i repeated it on purpose. BluRR can't help. That bad. Infamous "i don't wanna do the hse chores and i'm making you do it" isn't going anywhere but here. I want my rest as in, hang out on my own at the end of the day... Chill at the pc when i feel like it... Or even listen to music and snack out on seaweed (Thanks Jerry for the introduction!). I'm just so tired.

Sure. I'll have to repeat history in the either near future or in the future; but can't the younger one help as well. When i bring up the subject, she has the best excuses no one would bother thinking, "sorry but that was yeas ago. If you want it, you can go back to like what, 50 years ago? If not then too bad and sorry,". What nerve. I'm tired. Really tired. I don't think i'm ever going to ask anyone who works and studies at the same time now, "How do you cope working and classes?" In my case, work(s), classes and home which includes bratty siblings who're never open for hse chores and mum who suffers CKD and expects more from you.

Fingers crossed for the coming results. I managed to score from H.H. and i'm so, so so so so fucking happy i did! Screw you B3! MWAHAHAHAHAHA. Lol~ Error made, retrieved and now to wait again. Itadakimasu.

Now, since the door is opened, i'm going to sleep! Cockroach flew in about an hour ago from the cold weather outside and it's warmer here with the pc >_> Such excellent choice! Dang you small creature of doom! *stay away pls! T^T *#$)!@#&!&@)#!@$!* Hell it was flying. Hate it so much. Anyway, i gotta go sleep and get up earlier to fold the been there done that clothes before i start typing on my death bed.

Night bloggie! Sweet dreams, have fun, love you super loads and take care! I'll update again when i have sufficient news~