Do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do

Dear bloggie,

Only because I felt like singing.

A couple'a moments ago, I just found out an old post which I didn't manage to publish in July that I wasn't oomph-ed at work, coz I was getting bored of it - repetitive what not. NOW, I think I'm about to murder my boss, every way I can. Oh, not to mention my team mates.

I've pondered about it and thought, "Am I really such a bad employee?". Every blinking email reply is sandwiched with the juiciest negative remark in any form; it's either "you don't read emails", "you obviously missed the deadline", "since you're not efficient enough, I'll take over", "again, I repeat" or "I don't ____ for an answer". And again, I wonder - who's the one who isn't able to manage his team? 

Look, we've (fucking team mates as asses from planet dumb-a-tron) done the same mistakes over time and repeatedly, there's obviously something wrong. Why? If I knew, I wouldn't be sitting here now. I'll be at the Empire State making cocktails singing "do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do". So, 

1. We don't get meetings (oh we sure do once every 3 months), 
2. I don't know what exactly went wrong with my assignments,
3. My suggestions are usually foggy and somehow disappears within an email or two,
4. We don't have an update AFTER the meeting with your boss and;
5. Obviously we don't even know exactly what we're supposed to do (because I can suddenly be involved or be held responsible for the things I never was!).

How fucked can we get, eh? I love my job, seriously, jokes all aside. I love what I write (copy writing), uploading, updating whatnots, liaising with the media (occasionally), dancing from state to state to do my utter awesome social work (company, of course) and newsletters. I take that back. Not the quarterly newsletters. You don't know how painful the agony just coming up with one issue. And this time around, the due is within a week - guess what? My (stupid ass) team mate and I just got a mail not too long ago with a warning, here I indirectly quote, "Your participation is encouraged, however if your assigned task is not completed at all, you won't be joining". Means I don't get to go to the awesomest party ever in November. In also other words, I'm on leave and flying to Timbaktu. Honestly, my answer would've been "the fuck I care. Come at me bro". For all with guts, please raise your hands - no.

Boss, I'm sick of your fun and games, making me all demotivated and shit when you say you don't. I am so sick, I am so tempted to walk out here right now. I'm not doing it because of me, not you. I kinda miss my old boss who gave a shit about my progress no matter how much I have done and almost died from it, at least I lost weight. I can bet you with an eye or two that I've not gained any experience from my recent escapade from work, in fact everything just got worse! To think that a new boss would've oiled the gears in my work life, I beg to differ.

Am I at work now? Yea, sure am. In fact, I've got a tonne of stuff to complete by today and I'm busy typing out a storm on my blog. I'm tired and sick. I wanna get out of HERE.

Bloggie, there hasn't been anything fancy in the last month or so. Hence it was a full frontline machine gun massacre for today and I'll only post another rosy update sometime soon. Maybe one of our event which I've attended? Maybe.

Anyway, I love you lots bloggie. To the grave we go when the time comes; but I've got unfinished business tonight. 

Another day, staring at the ceiling

Dear bloggie,

Of all days I’m in the mood to actually start typing out my long voyage for the past month or so is the time I have to remember that I stabbed my left thumb with a safety pin because of my missing button at my tummy.

In March, an important person to us all including the greens left for good. Now, I’m not being nasty in any possible way. I’m just giving an honest opinion and being cruel. But he has taught us living ones a stern lesson – to cherish what we have now and don’t forget that life can be easily taken away. I do horrible at funerals. I not only arrived at the wake at the most emotional and sentimental part of all but the most depressing one. My biggest hate at a funeral is the hammering of the nails to seal the coffin. I can’t describe the feeling. Isn’t a great feeling anyway. However, I have a dumb question – why were there camera men and photographers at the funeral? And they were actually people whom we hired for events. Why?

It’s been an up and down road these days and weeks but it never gets any better. My job remains a whirlpool of confused thoughts of whether I should stay on this greening-ful job or kick-start a more exciting one. Again, I’m not sure, and most of all not ready in anyway. Was talking to him last night and realized a couple’a important things I should always keep track of; including my health. Promised myself to take some time before I truly decide – July, I’ll see you soon.

Recently, I realized I’m pretty alone most of the time, find it hard to trust people and I crave revenge and vengeance. Ever since he left, everything was just evil. There are days I snicker at the pain they face. Some other times, I weep at the silliest moments I’ve gone through. Had a few nice crushes yet they had to all go away… One failed me big time – loved me, cared for me and crushed me bigger time. God bless you little child of January. We’ll see where you’re off to for giving me a ride of my life, again. The other one was a darling, who was then again too much of a darling for me to have him as a darling. He was TOO rich (and so wrongly sexy. Oh, his dimples I love). It’ll pass.

On the bright side, I had a good time over my shopping sprees and most of them were spent with daddie. Got a few of these and a few of that and it keeps getting better! I knew I used to be pretty stingy when I was back in my school and college days. I only spend on what I earn enough; the rest goes to my piggy (which has upgraded into a decorative Indian box). Eat cheap, buy super cheap and save like mad. Reason being was I couldn’t even afford more than what I could spend (pocket money was constantly borderline!). Today, I live with no regrets whatsoever. Well, yes I had a few because I worked over my free time if not I’d spend most of it at the junkie because I truthfully enjoyed it. Lost some friends along the way too and most of it was, “Oh bother, she’s working again. Let’s not let her know”. Or something like that. Some held strong, kept me company while waiting for my dismissal and mosey off. Good times my friend, good times. But the satisfaction I get from spending on my family, giving them the best of what they deserve and needed all these time.

L-R: Berty, mybigfatarm (fuck, I look like I'm a tennis player here!) and Serene. No we weren't drunk but there was definitely alcohol consumption somewhere somehow.

The one thing that's been bothering me is this friend'a mine who comes to me, rants and asks for advice on his torn marriage - all because of his bad screwing habit. More to come in my next post.

I can’t believe I agreed to go on a mad diet with the rest of my team members and colleagues. Tis’ so mad, I’ll post about it in my next upload. Now, it’s getting late and granny here needs to get her brain sleep or she’ll probably not do any better and extend the to-do’s which has already been extend due to some brain farts; or over expectations from over achieving humans.

Till my eyes stay open, I love you tonners and tonners, take care and I will keep you intact again soon!

*posted on 020512*



L-R: Mybigfatarm, Berty and Lam at the National Sales & Marketing Convention in early March. We're half drunk if you wanted to know.

Days aren't always good

Dear bloggie,

You might wanna close yer ears at some parts. It's all the bad mood and pms crappy things. Oh well, i'mma lady =3

Honestly, i have like one of the worse times i had at college because of some pms nonsense! I just don't get it. I was feeling all bad and frustrated over the smallest things. GEEZ. I went for a shopping spree yesterday at Watsons for cotton buds, face powder and nail polish remover but bad news was the face powder was too red for my face that i looked Red Indian! FUCK-o. Was having some terrible time for no good reason, called daniel up and started ranting on the phone. He was like so funny, "mm, diana don't worry k. We'll get a new one, I'll sell that for you. Don't get so angry pls. You sound scary" LOL! ^_^''' The worse part was that when i went to college and i accidentally 'poked' mel by answering her and walking away and she thought i was mad at her! OMG i feel so bad now T^T i didn't mean to... I really didn't... T^T i was just so frustrated that it cost me 10.90 bucks on something i can't use in the end.. I wanted to use it for my event today (Mkting Principles, sales event) since i was wearing my kebaya top T^T WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!! Terrible things happened, not so terrible things happened too. Like visiting the best shop ever at Summit ^_^ Bought stuff. Like A LOT of stuff even a dress and it was my 1st after like months even after 2 paychecks... Bought mummy a lipstick and two packets of beehoon and ah kuu's familys' Christmas present~~ WWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeee~

Talking about paychecks, i manage to spend some and shared money with Pris to get a ps2~ (finally after almost 5 years >_>) so yay~ Got ten free games and 55 waiting at god bro's place since his ps2 dieded liao =3 yay more~ Ok remember, for another pay left! don't forget wei. Not worth leaving the money for stupid companies!

On last Friday (should be the 9th Oct), melmel brought me to Sakae Sushi~ For the 1st time in my life =33 And it was GOOD! Seriously. The food there was pretty expensive-o but worth every cent! xDD I stayed over her place for a night (sat night) because there was Tereessa's B'day party where i had wind in my tummy because i was too hungry @_@ but had two cans of Heineken beer in the end. Overall, enjoyed a lot with mel. Maybe coz she thinks a lot like how i do so i THINK i can clique with her very well. Wonder if she does too >_<

~> Loli skirt materials bought~ Will list out price later-o~ At the moment, need to hunt for a simple top AND MJ's!

At the moment, was looking at Yvie and Mel trying out the key charms and charm charm's, maybe i should give it a shot and see what turns out. I'm not that dull-in-creative-stuff am i? Just see what luck shows me this time ^_^

So, thats really about what i would wanna share here bloggie. I hope things are fine all round though. Oh ya! Daniel went back today to miri... But he's got two new friends ^_^ new puppies! WEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeee~ He's gonna show me the pictures tomorrow so yay~

Night bloggie~ Sweet dreams...