Ruthless Red-Letter Day Rambles

Dear bloggie,

'S been so occupied with my work over matter than I almost had no time for myself. Ruthless boss means reluctant subords.

I've had a fairly rough wave ride recently in most of everything besides my family - as usual. Work itself has the ability to take my weekdays and sometimes part of my weekends if I don't slack; in other words the word 'slack', 'chill', 'relax', 'kick back' and probably even 'take it easy' is not in any part of the department's dictionary. Through an experiment recently, I tried to take my job a little easier since SOME team mates are so ignorant, which I thought can be followed. True and sad enough, my work eventually piled up like Atlas having planet Earth over his shoulders. I gave up all related ideas of "slacking" in my job because I remembered how important I am in the company... 'Nough said.

Situations varies: You have too much work you can cope, inexperienced in whatever you do, no proper guidance in all topics you come across and of course, a superior who doesn't seem to know how to be nice and caring at the right times, places and situations. I was questioned about something I didn't want to bother initially but it really ticked me off when I "declared" my EHs. I do NOT understand why on earth there should even be a question mark at the end of the sentence when I feel that I occasionally need to extend my WHs to complete my tasks, assignments etcs with it. So?

In say 2, 1 hour plus, I'll be turning double 2's; but surprisingly I don't feel ready to even grow up! All I've ever wanted since small was to turn into an adult, spend lotsa cash (after earning more) and enjoy life the way it should. Now, the only thing I can think of is keeping myself sane, saving up enough cash (after a lot of payments thanks to commitments) and planning vacations in advance to try to enjoy life if I have a chance to seize the moment. Nothing to look forward to this year after all the mistakes done with no turning back.

Something else I realized is that I ... Caught in a moment of thought and don't remember what I wanted to say. ... ... ... ... ... ... Uh, well. Suppose some sentence are meant to be left incomplete.

I took one photo after I reached home from Nat's sister's wedding day last Saturday but had to make some changes especially in effects; for the heck of it haha...

Anyway, I was talking to su-boss not too long ago and was telling her how much "I miss being in a relationship but not any of my relationships". I've been getting glimpse of my previous one although shaking it out of my mind helps only whenever I scoff over it or remind myself of how painful enough. Weird as it is though, I remembered asking myself, "How was it like at the beginning actually?" but realized soon enough that every memory wasn't worth reminding myself about and sighed it off my shoulder.

Opps battery dying! Gots to goes now! Take care bloggie, and remember how much I love you.

Nights-ty nights and sweet dreams! And Happy Birthday Diana ^_^