Baby to lady

Dear bloggie,

The greatest issue i have with myself, is MYSELF. Well i always wanted to be all dressy and all the way up to the highest floor. I'm not even close to it now. True enough i am not myself as much as i was before, honestly, i don't know why at all. She used to be that really cool 25 year old (that a friend thought she was) before but this time around, she's gotten way younger than her actual age.

Possibly that she was pampered a little too often and much... Maybe even spoilt to rock bottom state. I can't tell either. Fact is, she's gotta be a little more than who she already is. Parents nagging thoroughly about the same thing. The same story.

My question is what has went so wrong that everything isn't as it used to be? It will definitely be a bigger issue if it keeps going on...

"Bloom darling. Bloom into our flower," smiles Shane.

"Let's see what flower you will turn out to be," her long pale fingers wrapped around my very small stubby ones and continued, "Bloom and show us what colors you can shine,"

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Well i'm not heart broken with my results from my past english test which everyone was surprised how it turned out. My mum wasn't mad at me. She was like, "WTF" *rolls eyes* who would expect something like that from me! GOSH. I just hate the idea of re-wasting my time and energy and money and face as a senior and doing it like, for the second time... Geez. It's not as if my english is that great, but it's not that bad i would have flunked the blinking paper! Where is this going to... My paper in the afternoon was pretty sucky as well. For a strong bad feeling, all mu results won't be as "happily ever after" as i would think.

G'night bloggie... I'mma dying here actually. At least i know ppl who're thinking of me out there~ You know who you are though. Yes you.