Bouncin' Bunnification 2011

Dear bloggie,

Happy last day of new yearrrrrr~ Been a blast since we're in SPAR! Can't ask for more when I truly believe that this year of the bouncin' bunny,'ll be the best year ever and I so cannot wait for the months to come. Within the past week, good news has been pouring in (except for certain factors which was obviously unavoidable... which is obviously very saddening... ugh...). That's just the way life is isn't it?

College on the academic line is done for and over! No more classes and one internship for my psych left to do. Going back to Green Factory because I heard they were short-handed and it's my best chance to permanently stay there... Or will I? I'm expecting the best but, expectations always let me down so I'll keep my chin up high till the day comes. This time, it'll be the HR Dept. under supervision of Ms. Super Sr. and the rest of the HR team. The HR team is particularly, absurd. I remember that day when I went back to help, they were the only crazy group who did the craziest poses on the Happiness Float (a' bunnies & horses)! Makes life so worth it~ Again, I look forward to a better future with them with all those superb perks; not to mention that the bosses love me, for now!

Being able to be here in a different environment sure is great and after almost a decade there, it's definitely too long. We love the neighborhood and people, the facilities are not bad too (can't be expecting the best from a small place), I finally (okay so it's my sister and I, not just me) have my own set of NEW furniture WITH my favorite part'a all queen size baby!~ And of course the whole place is just the best of everything that has happened. My PC is all done, the anti-virus is all done, small's PC is all done... Another great thing is the bikes. I haven't met their owners but their bikes! Haha... I have a feeling that the matte black one downstairs is a Malay dude's bike. Oh the pain! There're a few more scramblers and stuff but that's only from one block anyway hahaha... But seriously, a few more boxes, some brackets and shelves and a good wall mounted hat rack from IKEA will help a whole lot. Oh and Daiso too! I convinced mum and dad and relatives about the goodness of RM5's worth. Turned out pretty good and we're getting lotsa stuff from there now - anti-scratch cork pieces, containers, canvas/recycle bag material bags for my PS1 and 2, document tray, hooks, hangers, dehumidifiers and several more which I can't exactly remember.

So far, I've been sailing the single safe waves pretty well but it wasn't too kind towards me sometimes, most of the time. Been a lonely dreamer apart from that. Guess I've almost got everything but a partner. Too young to look for one? Maybe. But it's always good to have company, special company. No they aren't the birds and the bees; they're the hugs & kisses, love & cuddles, fun & fiery companions. Truthfully, I give on TOTALLY on long distance whatnot whatnot simply because I'm not strong enough for one and I don't intend to wreck anything including his heart. Therefore, I'm keeping those away since I'm in the process of being hurt by someone who's, been almost a world to me and another party who's suddenly too incompatible. Perhaps it's good to start my career first then carry on with this?

Dream come true yet nightmare. Whatever it is, I'm somewhat satisfied with what I have for now. The rest will have to line up. Oh and I have my line of Pokemon on my monitor's base! Woohoo~~ Finally, I can actually look at them when I'm using my PC...!

Till then, I don't have much to update. Do take care of yourself there bloggie. Not sure when I can update but it's gotta be soon since small's upgrading her baby (?) with gadgets with her angpow money (like how I've gotta spend my money on working baju's). Love you a whole darn lot and have fun there! It's a Terribly Terrific Thursday here! By the way, no one throws oranges anymore? I wanna collect those banana's what the hell! Where ya'll humans be? Bye bloggie!!

Couz-terrific Thursday

Dear bloggie,

I felt so much love within seconds - brain-love-fart just because daddy called home today and was itchy, "Eh, tomorrow ah, I take leave okay?".

So much so, I just wanted to throw pictures of my family onto you and be happier!

Oh how time flies~ Even faster by the days now. Those were good times. Don't worry. They're a whole lot more'a pictures actually. Maybe a little too big for bloggie too!

(Realize how I HAD gradually to put on weight along the years!)

And so we have a part of what I have in my albums in my pc... Most of them MIGHT have been repeated but it's always neater to have them reminded of how sweet and tantalizing life rewarded me! God bless you loves and (me) may we be bonded even after we're old and shriveled! Hahaha...

That's all I have to add and update today. Nothing grand really. Just some moments for me to be happy again~ Take care bloggie! Loving you as lots as always~ I'll see when I get to update again!

See You in 10

Dear bloggie,

Okay so I did NOT post anything up for New Years. Nothing much really happened but I do pray hard for a better year, 2011 compared to 2010 (since that year sucked big time for multiple reasons...).

For one good thing, I did my version of New Year's look and the color turned out great. Since it's fun to cheat, I'll post up a nice picture of the photoshopped version as I always do (instead of the actual picture - mwahahahahahahahahaha *coughcoughchokecoughcoughcough*).

It's the 9th today and there're so many things lined up this month for my family and I which I can't wait! Since there really isn't anything much, I've updated my wishlist & resolutions for this year and the months to come. Is this realistic?:-

Resolutions (that would probably never happen like the years before =3)

~ SUPER LOSE THIS EXCESS FAT. Like seriously. They're a waste of space and they're killing my old clothes in my wardrobe!

~ in search for a "Happily Ever After"

~ Learn all the proper swimming techniques in 6months!

~ A little handmade craft in the room will do better

Upated ~>

~ Fix up my AMD pc and make sure it lives longer than every few months! ERGH

~ train up on my shooting skill WHICH I SO TOTALLY SUCK NOW!

(This might add on along the way...)

Wishlist (might/might not?)

~ Yoshi plushie -> Huggable size! (don't ask why)

~ A3 sized cutting mat

~ lappie (through the brochures -> Toshiba's Satelite L645-1052X/Fujitsu's LifeBook LH530)

~ 1:43 Honda S2000 car model (metallic maroon) -> My favvy car since I was 14/15 which I obviously know I cannot drive...

~ flattering kebaya top and a new sarung... The old sarung, decided to NOT fit me anymore

~ eye care cream by Clinique

~ Revlon Colorburst Lipgloss -> Peony

~ Revlon Colorburst Lipstick -> Soft Nude

~ Revlon Colorstay Liquid Foundation -> um... I forgot the color? Hehehe....

~ 88 Eyeshadow Palette (non-shimmer) -> ugh can't stand shimmer much!

~ simple pair'a casual slippers to match girly clothings. Hate my feet. Ugh...

~ Mary Janes! 3inches perhaps since my height.. well you get the point

~ EXTREMELY simple black platform wedges (found in Vincci with a reasonable price but contemplating...)

~ The Sims3 Original + Expansion Packs!

~ Logitech webcam - for once, it won't give up on me half way right?

So far... I think that's about it. I've been on a crazy shopping spree recently which I believe isn't healthy at all. Can't wait to shop (what??) for CNY, SPAR and meet Black Mamba to settle the stuff I need by Monday!

Phew~ Life can be a bitch sometimes don't you agree? I'll see when I can update you again bloggie. Do take care... Can't always be there for you, but you know I love you too much I can't let go either! Sweet dreams~ G'night bloggie! God bless and I'll update soon!

Tainted Teal

Dear bloggie,

It's either me or my MSN really hates me today. But Youtube loves me! Yay loading of great vids~

Remember the photo of my recent nails I promised? Tadaaa~ (captions are obviously below each picture, not the other way round...):

This is without flash and it's a little further.

Flash is on, finger are posing to give that extra sheen!

The macro shot which is most appealing.

See that lovely ocean-ish and aqua touch? I fell in love with them instantly when they were still on the shelves. Now, I'm too excited to know what else I can do to make them more attractive and flirty. P.S. Thank you Revlon! =D

My assignments and presentations have OFFICIALLY ended; includes my college life for the past 4 years... It's a good thing & bad thing in a way. Good thing - I needn't face those dumb faces anymore! AND the college management is no longer stepping on my tail! Bad thing - There ain't gonna be skipping'a class nor great long 3 week holidays anymore at the end of a hard, worked up week... And the procrastination-! Ungh. Sucks. But like they say, every down side'a something has a better sunrise there, though it's gonna be a lot longer than I think it will...

Can't wait to get my eyebrows done then I can start doing up my pretty almond (omg I can't believe I said that!) yet tiny eyes with my favorite colors. It's been a little weird for me to start picking up on gold and realizing how lovely the color is, and I've been pretty obsessed with how I pair them up with blue. For example, a blue top with nice golden bangles and short gold dangling earrings. I still remain blue for the eyes like the one I did for my b'day at SR, the famous Gosh blue liquid liner at the bottom to accentuate my small eyes behind my magnifying glasses and a simple winged liner on the lid.

Example:

But the pencil liner on the lid was lightly smudged instead of a liquid liner which emphasizes the wing and line.

(Sorry about the size of the picture. A little too big but it refused to go any smaller!)

I forgot to put this up actually. It IS fake and photoshopped so don't get me wrong. I don't have blue-green eyes, smooth porcelain skin, pink lips (I NEVER put pink on my lips!) and most of all, I don't look like how I do in my pictures! Credit work to Bang Jo Jo who decided to make me look like a Doll:

Which I totally though was too cool except for one great comment by a friend, "You look like a mayat (corpse) with touch up". Which in a way I have to agree... Though I don't want to... By the way, see the difference of how my "normal" eye would look like in the picture above compared to the fake version of the Doll? Hehehe... No wonder models look great in the mags! I really really really wanted to send this picture to you last week, but things broke out and you didn't realize. Again on Sunday, I tried loading it up on Photobucket but it didn't wanna work as well. But today, I managed to put my signature on it and post it up on my bloggie. Yay me. Boo delays!

Anyway, you get the point. Sent you massive amounts of emails and offline messages but looks like you mean it when you REALLY wanted to stay away from me. Fine, I won't disturb you anymore. Great discovery about my call though. Now I can't tell if that was real or not. Pfft.

AND, I got an invitation to my god bro's 21st b'day party at some bistro I can't remember the name. The best typo the couple did was "11 Dec 7.30am to 12 Dec 1.30am". I was thinking to myself, "What the eff're we suppose to be doing at the place at 7am when the doors aren't even open!" Funny couple. I bet it's 7.30pm. Haha... Anyway, I don't know what I'll be wearing but since I've got time... Ngehehehe. And some extra cash... NGEHEHEHE. Probably not. Was thinking of saving up for something more worth while anyway.

Once my eyebrow's are set, what color should I try? Hmm... While I'm thinking on that and while you're bothered to join me, I really gotta get going now. The weather, typically is turning darker than ever and I believe a storm is on its way. Do take good care of yourself there bloggie. I'll see if I'd pop by anytime soon! Bye! Have fun there!~

Endless road

Dear bloggie,

Today was another horrible day. My head once again, fell from the sky and is now down under in dirt and pain. Now my whole body not only hurts, I skipped lunch today because I have no appetite and now suffering from the empty-stomach-effect. My whole body is showing its revenge and I'm so not enjoying anything.

If my love life would have rock bottomed recently, my group assignments just started joining the fun. One after another. I feel like giving up. I have nothing else to say today. I'm about to give up. My life, my love life, my assignments, my brain, my body.

If i don't come home safely tonight, you know where I am.

Take care blogs. Wish you a great night ahead. God bless. If you want to wait for me you can go ahead. I tried calling you on Skype & MSN to the point you refuse to even log in anymore. The time when I need you most, you're not here. Maybe you really don't love me anymore. I don't know how to cry anymore. I just don't. My heart doesn't know how to ache anymore, it just bleeds. I can't scream anymore, my throat is too sore. I wish I met an accident and never woke up. I'm so tired.

Walk like an Egyptian

Dear bloggie,

Can't remember any of my dreams today so I guess they were all fine but I knew I dragged myself off the bed reluctantly to go for breakfast at Puchong...

You didn't reply although for some reason, I just know you're behind the screen. Gosh... I can't keep forcing you to do something you don't want to either. I'll leave you be. As long as eventually there's an answer from you. For the time being, I had to look for something that could stop me from crying. And...

Finally, a totally inspiring discovery today was this:

The real belly dancing we all should know is that ladies who do those shimmies and hip downs and ups should have those flesh and size to move. Such an inspiring video of a plump belly dancer. Yea she's a little on the plus size side, but can you shimmies like her? I really admire those shimmies while doing undulations. Oh by the way, shimmies are those rapid movements of the hips that drives anyone nuts - seriously. And that stamina! Gosh. I picked up on belly dancing again (with mum's shawl on my hips and belly revealing top =P), and I realized how excessively energiless I am all these months since I stopped. I have always loved belly dancing and not too sure why not many people admire them unlike hiphop, ballroom dancing and so many others. One fine day, I'll spend my earnings for those classes. Hell, I might go for one soon! Haha...

My legs always gave up on me and I was bathing in sweat like I never did before! That however, was one great time working out while enjoying the sexiness of belly dancing. So what if I'll gain a few extras on my hips and ass (as if they weren't big & wide enough...)? The only thing now is the motivation to keep doing it like I used to! Ush!~

The next best thing was the Mario & Luigi - Partner in Time! I love the effects of the game and how cute baby Mario & Luigi are! If anyone of you ever asked or heard, I'm a big fan of these Italian bros from Japan (and Nintendo). Wait, are they from Japan? =P Anyway, the music is just too adorable and the characters are mighty lovely... Had a blast trying to koop-ah the koopa's and Shroobs. Oh well. Just one of those silly days hanging around on my own.

They weren't for the fun of going back to what I love to do and love all these years, I just hope that those buggers can keep me company these days till one fine days comes; so I won't be so lonely while you're away. It's a good way to keep my mind active and moving, than sopping and eyes soring. No, it isn't easy and no one ever said so. You'd probably be burning up the kitchen and cutting yourself into pieces... But I don't want to keep my mind too focused on what's happened although I know it's not the best damn thing I've done. If I tried approaching you like crazy and there's still no answer, I can't pretend everything was okay and spend 24/7 crying over it. I've still gotta get up and at least work on my assignment, or my body for this matter. You wouldn't want me falling sick (I THINK) neither do I want you (I KNOW) to. So please, I beg you. You might not want to answer me for eternity and shun me off for the two years like you mentioned, but I'm still here and waiting.

Then again I was thinking to myself as I read your post again, I don't feel like I'm worth your love and honestly, I did humiliate you in front of your friends and room mates (IF THEY WERE - I don't even know). The least I want to know is if I'm still somewhere there or not even close to there. That's all I want to know.

For now, shimmies, hip downs & ups, eights ups down front & back, undulations and Mario & Luigi will have to do. Oh by the way, I was procrastinating to do my assignment, I painted my nails with Ocean Breeze by Revlon and they're pale aqua blue! Good Lord I'm up to no good! Though I dont' fancy the pungent "scent"/"fragrance" they added into the polish... (I'll go a good favor and post up a shot of how they look like on my nails tomorrow...) ...

Whoops it's late now. I'm off to bed. Sweet dreams bloggie... Night night! Don't miss me too much now alright? Love you a whole big bunch there! While you're there, here's one of my f-a-v-o-r-i-t-e belly dancing songs I'd like to share. Enjoy! Take good care of yerself there alright? I won't be there to take care of you much, and the weather other there must be freezing by now! AND, I saw the news. Really bad. Makes me worry a lot more now, plus I can't do nuts about it *sigh*. Please EAT. PLEASE.

	Hakim (Featuring Cleopatra) - Walk Lke an Egyptian .mp3
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Living in Denial

Dear bloggie,

There was this strong feeling to blog actually. When I opened this page and looked at the blank text box, I stared at it blankly.

Figured that there really isn't anyone I can talk to now, I might as well slap them all on this blank page shouldn't I? Presentation today went pretty good for me except my group members. The most interesting part is their expressions on their faces when the lecturer actually called every member of the the group out front and center to answer her questions. Though EVERYONE in class didn't expect it (which I was surprised), a smirk reached my lips and couldn't help but grin in my mind. This is your great lovely ANTH lecturer. Well just so you know, she's well known for all these where I'm similar to her when lecturing and attitude wise. Why did you think I kept asking everyone "Are you ready? Anything else to need to know before we present?"? That's for NOT taking down your own notes, NOT paying attention when the interview was going on, NOT interviewing your own villager and ONLY relying on me to do everything. Therefore, I knew everything you didn't. I just felt, a cruel wave wash into my soul and it just felt, too good. Then again, it lives only in me. Killjoy.

I've been reading a manga recently, actually since last night... Been up to 20 chapters already! But... It's at its most depressing part of the manga. Not bad enough that I'm still feeling really. Really. And... I've been having all these nasty dreams. And everytime you reacted to me in my dream, I'd wake up and turn then sigh (yea I'm conscious by then) - Naps included. My body has been aching pretty bad too especially my neck and shoulders. They're so tense and uncomfortable as if they're about to fall of. Another interesting encounter was/is this heat flush thing since morning in class. Boy, was it bad in that formal shirt and slacks... And again not too long ago say 8.45pm & 9pm and I don't even know why they happen. I never really had them for months now! I heard mum intends to visit the massage parlor one of these days. Better tell her I'm dead interested to join her soon!

I haven't stopped crying. Quite funny how they come in weird waves. After a while, I tone down. Shortly, I'd start again. Been waiting for you to reply; but I suppose it won't be anytime soon. Not sure if you know how torturing it is when something like that happens when you know it wasn't entirely your fault. In this case mine. So many questions, so little answers, no time at all. Times like these, I wish I weren't a Scorpion. And you weren't a Gemini. I was reading a book on Astronomy this evening before my nap and read the exact some sentence of our Sun & Star signs - 2/4 hearts for compatibility *sigh*. Gemini's are communicative freaks (and in a nicer way would be "extremely engaged with talking & communication") whilst sensual Scorpio is overly emotional and sensitive (in other words, "expects to sharing feelings with partner; like all the time"). Guess that's why you prefer talking about everything under the sun while I prefer sharing my feelings and emotions and expecting you to share yours too; but I know too well that, that rarely happens since you left college. Okay suck it in. I know there's that choked up feeling again. Your eyes are sore from crying and heart which needs plumbing. Yet at the back of my head tells me that I shouldn't let those Astronomic hoo-ha control my life. What can I do if they sound too accurate? And another voice answers, "Let's show that all those Astro-ginormic stuff aren't true!". Who'm I to prove anything now?

It's either me, or us living in denial now. You're so hurt there probably wouldn't be reading anything I've sent you all these time. Why the extra aggravation? I'm still sitting waiting hoping wishing praying. Anyway, only two days passed. Short two days.

Yet my heart screams in pain and cry uncontrollably everytime I think of you. Can't tell if you still want me back. Can't tell if you're doing any better than me. Can't tell if you've been reading anything of mine. Can't tell if that idiot Sweed is there making things worse to that poor heart of yours; but he stabbed me like crazy because I reminded him of his ex gf and not as if he would help make things better for me.

I can't stand it. I don't feel like coming online anymore. I just don't want to remind myself about me. Nor you. I don't feel like doing anything. And I have a presentation on Monday on that stupid stupid survey and assignment due on Sunday for compilation. I just don't have the mood for anything. I don't even feel like typing any of my feeling down now.

I'm leaving now bloggie. I'm sorry everytime I come on is just to share with me a part of my lifeless self. I love you a lot alright? I miss you a whole big bunch too. Might end up in bed early tonight. Sleep tight there. Sweet dreams and g'night. God bless you lots and please take care of your lovely self. Bye...